Radhe Radhe!
It's been a while since I posted anything. Since I've moved to the East Coast, fall really seems to affect me and I've become more reclusive and more introspective this year than most.
I also haven't written because I don't seem to have a voice right now. I'm in a quandary and haven't resolved it. Living and working among people I don't identify with has always been a problem, but at least in California there was some understanding and support. Here, there really isn't. I feel very alone. My days are filled with nothing. The image of being in a boat floating in the mist describes it.
Jagat posted these the other day:
Like a mirror, a person takes on the qualities of those with whom he comes in contact. One who is intelligent should therefore seek the company of those who have the same ideals in order to develop their good qualities in himself. (HBS 8.51, BRS 1.2.229).
One may possess high birth and learning; and he may meditate on his mantra and perform austerities. Nevertheless, if he is devoid of devotion to the Lord, these things are as useless as beautiful decorations on a dead body. (HBS 3.11, CC 2.19.75)When will that day be mine?
With no offenses, and the taste increasing,
When will Your mercy shine in my heart?
When will that day be mine?
-Bhaktivinode Thakur
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